I haven’t been posting much lately, even though I’ve been journaling a lot. Today I just felt like I have to post a little tidbit of what I’m learning or I may explode. Those of you who have been reading my blog the past few years know that I went through a severe season of… Continue reading Buh-Bye False Self
I have been writing a lot about spiritual abuse, legalism, recovery, denial, feelings, etc., so I’ll be posting some original stuff soon hopefully. This is actually tomorrow’s meditation, but so good I just had to share today. Accepting Powerlessness Since I’ve been a child, I’ve been in an antagonistic relationship with an important emotional part… Continue reading Accepting Powerlessness
The following is an excerpt from Richard Rohr’s book Falling Upward. Your stage mask is not bad, evil, or necessarily egocentric; it is just not “true.” It is manufactured and sustained unconsciously by your mind; but it can and will die, as all fictions must die. Persona and shadow are correlative terms. Your shadow is… Continue reading Your Stage Mask
I love today’s Language of Letting Go Thought for the Day soooo much, I just had to share it here. Who Knows Best? Others do not know what’s best for us. We do not know what’s best for others. It is our job to determine what’s best for ourselves. “I know what you need.” .… Continue reading Who Knows Best?
I put you on a pedestal. I wanted to please you at all costs. I wanted you to acknowledge I was spiritually growing at optimal pace, even if I knew you would only be acknowledging a mask. Your opinion of me became more important than God’s. You said you struggled, but it was hard to… Continue reading Dear Bible Study Teacher,
I woke up at 4 am last Friday morning in what has been my default wake-up mode for the past several months – total panic. I was grateful I made it to 4 a.m. though – that means I got, at the least, four hours of sleep. I lay there for a few moments trying… Continue reading Hugging My Cactus
“Sometimes…the truth is harder than the pain inside.” Erasure My mind sometimes goes there…to that ugly place where it tells me “if it gets too bad, you know what you can do.” The truth is that it wasn’t just doing this during that excruciatingly dark night of the soul three years ago…it has been going there… Continue reading My mind goes there sometimes (a confession)