pretending

Let’s Pretend

 

Let’s pretend we’re not human.

Let’s pretend life is easy.

Let’s pretend prayer solves everything.

Let’s pretend our homes are immaculate and that we don’t shove things in a closet or junk drawer when company comes over.

Let’s pretend our wallets are always full and that none of us ever struggle financially.

Let’s pretend that people don’t ride the roller coaster of depression and anxiety.

Let’s pretend people don’t suffer with chronic illnesses.

Let’s pretend that we don’t get angry, cry, or experience trauma.

Let’s pretend we have never hurt those we love.

Let’s pretend that our loved ones who died never existed and that it should be easy peasy to have our one week of grief and just move on.

Let’s pretend that our loved ones don’t go to war and that some of them don’t come back.

Let’s pretend that our children aren’t dealing with their own issues.

Let’s pretend that people don’t commit suicide.

Let’s pretend that racism and all the other isms don’t exist.

Let’s pretend that religion is the answer to all our problems.

Let’s pretend that we don’t have stressful days at work.

Let’s pretend that listing three things we’re grateful for every day protects us from pain.

Let’s pretend that friendships don’t end.

Let’s pretend that the Bible encourages us to pretend.

So much pretending. So little living.

I spent 40 years of my life pretending, and the Christian culture I was a part of encouraged denial in so many ways. I lost myself. I’m tired and so done.

Christina Hernandez, March 2017

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2 thoughts on “Let’s Pretend

  1. Your illustration of the masks is perfect for this post. Many times I’ve been so upset by “Christian culture” and trying to fit in but never really fitting in…but finally it got to a point where I said, “Forget that. I’m just going to seek and find Jesus for myself…Even if I have to go it alone.” This was a really great and very meaningful post. Thanks for sharing this.

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